Stay with me.

Dear Cali,

You're moving and I will miss you dearly. I will never forget you, we will keep in touch and write as often as possible. Please don't forget me and our memories we've shared together.
You mean so much to me, you are forever engraved in my heart, mind and spirit. Cali when you move there will not be a more trialed friendship than ours. There is noone that can take this all away because what we have is so real. It's unforgettable, timeless, priceless, and worthy enough to last. We will get through what ever trial God throws our way, Together. Stay with me as we grow together in God, Grace and life.

One last time.

Dear Ryan,
I want so much to talk to you.

But I feel that you have lost all love for our relationship. Ryan, I think about you everyday. My thoughts for you have not and never will change. You don't know the pain I go through when I see you at school or in the store, When I can't say hi to you because I feel as though your mad or upset with me and you think I'm a fake, two-faced, snob that doesn't care about anyone but her self. Well it's quite the opposite. I walk past you not saying anything in fear that I may only make it worse, That because, maybe we're both too prideful to go to one another or we're too scared because we're being watched.

I'll say it one last time, I love you soooo much.

From,

Cali Andrews.

Abandonment.

Dear Emily,

I Can't stop thinking about you. There is never a time in my life where I've regreted knowing you. You are such an amazing person to me. You have made my life So much easier to live, Because right now it's really crappy, and rather lonely. I feel as though everyone has abandoned me and almost can't wait until we leave. And all that does is make me feel like my life was ment for everyone to take out their feelings on me and I'm ment to be a great big target for them to just lash at me. I feel like I'm living a sacrificed life. I wish people knew how much I hate being accused of thing that were never done. It makes my think that I don't have a purpose, and my life is nothing. Nearly all my friends and those I cared for most have abandoned me and stone me with their words. Emily, I wish I lived a life like those in the book of Martyrs. Emily, I used to live such a normal life. Now I feel as though I will never get back to that. I love you for everything that you've done for me and taught me. You will always and forever be my best friend. Though you may also abandon me.

Love always,

Cali Andrews

A letter to The McCallisters

Dear McCallister Family,....

I can not begin to say how truely sorry I am for everything that I have caused in your family. I wish that I could go back and change the past, what I have done, Things could have been a whole lot better if it were not for me. I sometimes feel afraid to even speak to any of you. I am so careful as to what I say so I don't cause even more damage. I do not expect you to forgive me, nor do I deserve a second chance. I only pray that I do not cause your family any more pain.

Sincerely,

Cali Andrews.

Dear Emily.

My dearest Emily,....

I feel as though you are having a difficult time in life, and I feel as though

our friendship is fading ever so slowly.

I don't know how I'll be able to express my thoughts.

Emily if I ever lost you, My life, along with half of my personality,

That you have managed to bring out in me, my so called life would go down hill.

Emily, My love for you grows stronger every day.

Emily, If you ever decide to completely break off our friendship I would one hundred percent understand.

Without you by my side.

There are somethings.....

That time can not mend. Through the dark path that seems to go nowhere, and lead to heights that are impossible to climb, nor possible to achieve. My thoughts for you are never ending as the untameable sea. My heart aches to see pain in your face. For I know what it means to feel left alone, And have noone to go to to tell what and how you feel even though they would never understand. I know the feeling of being lost or just completely abused by the one you love the most. The unstoppable tears that would put the sea to shame flow from my eyes each and every night that I spend alone thinking if they only knew.

I can't stop this fear that I have of just thinking about loving you, and all of a sudden losing you. You say that I need to stand up for myself and keep on fighting for what I want. I can't stand the thought of losing you. I hate seeing you in pain like this. It's still hard to deal with losing you everywhere I go, But I'm trying to do what I can for your sake. I blame myself for everything that has happened.

The chances of us staying together are slim to none, Very limited. I can't stop loving you even after the long talks and warnings that I seem to have everyday with alot of people. Everytime I see you I see someone who deserves a second chance. My heart can not and will not go on beating without you by my side.

Dear Dad.

Dear Dad,

Through out my entire life you've never been there for me, you never told me that you could count on me. I wish more than anything in the world to see you smile at me and tell me how much you appreciate me, But I guess you don't see everything I do for you. If I could ask for something I would ask for you and mom to be happy for at least a month, with out any argueing. I'm soo sick and tired of this criticle stuff, Wanting to move, In my opinion, you really need to start thinking about your family and not the fact that you think it's whats"best" for us. Dad the only thing I can think of when you say you want to move is that you're sick and tired of what you're having to go through at work and just so you know you're not the only one going through trials, the entire family has to deal with these things as well. And right on top of that we have to deal with the blame that you seem to pour down on us. When I see you raining down on mom with anger it rips me and the rest of the family apart. What will it take for you to understand the pain that you're causing this family?